Hello, everyone! Hope you are all having a wonderful weekend so far! As some of you may have noticed, I have been somewhat absent from my blog and my Instagram for the past few weeks. It has nothing to do with any change in my passion for this blog, for living a healthy lifestyle, and for creating simple, healthy, delicious recipes.
Honestly, it’s come down to this: I’m choosing to put my health over my blog.
And you’re probably like, whaaaat do you mean by that? I actually found out a few months ago that I have Lyme Disease. What’s Lyme Disease, you ask? It’s a tick-borne auto-immune-like disease involving multiple co-infections that present in various life cycle forms in the body, causing inflammation, pain, neuropathy, and progressive degeneration without intervention. Symptoms include fatigue, brain fog, headaches, joint aches, and digestive issues. At least those are some of my symptoms. Sometimes Lyme patients will end up bedridden with quite a lot of dramatic horrors, but praise the Lord, I’m not as severe a case as that!
It has still significantly degraded my quality of life as well as my ability to keep up with all my expectations for myself. Gotta make good grades in school, gotta work on the weekends, gotta exercise and get enough sleep, gotta apply to allllll the colleges, gotta make awesome content for Ali and Her Almond Butter.
It was too much.
A few weeks ago it came to the point where I couldn’t physically handle the stress and pressure anymore. I had to look at all I was juggling and cut back. What’s most important to me is that I get well from Lyme and do well in school. I had to decide in my heart that everything else just did not matter—I had to let go of some things that are really important to me. The evil perfectionist in me had to die. What’s really great is that once I was able to let go of the pressure and the expectations, such relief fell on me. I could feel the physical effects of constantly living in stress start to fade. The throbbing headache, the dizziness, the faint feeling, and just overall physical weakness and tensity—it all just relaxed, and I could breathe again.
It was so worth the difficulty of letting go. Now when I come write blog posts and share recipes—which I will—it will be because I’ve found the space to share, not because of a crazy, obligatory must-do-it-all mentality. I promise you, I’m not shutting down Ali and Her Almond Butter. No way! I love sharing on this blog too much! I’ll keep sharing for sure, just maybe on a less regular basis for now. It’s important to me that I get well from Lyme, and sharing less frequently is part of the cost. And I mean, wouldn’t I be hypocritical if I talked about simple healthy living, while pushing myself with unhealthy pressure past my limits? My stepping back from blog expectations is a way for me to actually practice what I preach.
Y’all, stress is really bad for you. We’ve all heard about how it contributes to disease and damages your immune system and basically kills you. Please don’t let your (or someone else’s) impossible standards cause you to live in a toxic environment of stress! It’s so worth cutting back and letting go and putting your health before expectations.
Society says get up early, drink a lot of coffee, get it all done, be the very best, work hard, stay up late, work, work, work, do, do, do.
But I mean, what really matters? Your ability to measure up and do it all or your physical and mental health? Have some margin, make some space, make it so you can breathe a little. Hate to break it to you, but you’re never going to reach perfection. And don’t just blame your stress and business on somebody else—you have the ability to make steps toward leading a low-stress life, and that might involve saying no and letting go (woo look at me rhyme!). So what does simple healthy living mean for you?
Anyway! That’s what’s been going on with me! I hope this has been an encouragement to you! Don’t worry, I’ll be making more posts—I’m not completely abandoning my bloggy blog just because of this stupid health stuff.